Why him?

Me:
“Why did you send him?”

God:
“You needed someone to help propel you to the next phase of your life.”

Me:
“But why him? Why not someone else? Someone I wouldn’t care for; someone I could easily dismiss; someone I would never love!”

God:
“I did send others, many others, but you ignored EVERY SINGLE ONE!
Remember the guy with the wife? You told him off! Remember the guy with the dog? He made you uncomfortable? Remember the guy with the fancy car? He brought back really bad memories. You hung up on him then blocked his number! Remember all the others you politely told you weren’t interested?”

Me:
“Yeah, I see what you mean…”

God:
“So do you understand now why I had to send him?

Me:
“Yeah…
I’m such in idiot…
I didn’t get it.
I wasn’t paying attention. (Sigh…)”

God:
“No need to be mean to yourself. You’re just stubborn. I made you that way for a reason. Your tenacity has many uses. I just have to find creative ways of dealing with you is all. You certainly keep me on my toes” 🙂

Me:
“Yeah” 🙂

God:
“I had to send someone to catch you completely off guard. Someone who’d capture your attention; Someone you couldn’t ignore; Someone who would give you what you needed; Someone who’d make you listen.”

Me:
“It worked. He did all those things. He was amazing!”

God:
“I know. I saw it all! You were hurting. You were stuck. You were losing your essence. You were locking yourself away. I wanted so much more for you. I wanted to see you smile again. I wanted to hear you laugh again. I wanted you to thrive not just survive. I wanted you to be amazing for your munchkin and for yourself. Most importantly, I wanted you to move forward. Look at you now, you’re doing great!”

Me:
“Thank you Father, but it’s all because of you. None of this would have been possible without you!”

God:
“No need to thank me. You were made to be happy. To share that happiness with others. To bask in the joy of living. To rejoice in good times and bad. For in so doing you can be the light others need to see their way to ME. My child, you were made to be a bright diamond full of beauty, your rough edges polished and glowing, revealing the love you carry within.”

Me:
“Wow! Me? A diamond?”

God:
“Yes my child. Don’t be afraid to shine. Shine for ME!”

Me:
“Okay, then shine I will, Father! I’ll do my best. I bow in humility. Bestow upon me your mercy and grace so I may LIVE, LOVE and SHINE for you.”

God:
“Rise my child, rise and shine!”

Me:
“But what do I do now? How do I stop loving him now that his task is over, and he’s moved on? I’m really struggling with this. Some days I can ignore it, but sometimes, in an instant, the feeling overwhelms me and it’s excruciating! How do I get over him?”

God:
“You’ re not supposed to, there’s more…”

Me:
“More? What do you mean? I don’t understand.”

God:
“You’ll see…”

 

 


Contents written: Feb 20 2016  |  Copyright © 2016 Moylom Enterprises


17 thoughts on “Why him?”

    1. Glad you liked it! Thanks for reading. Sometimes in my quiet moments upon rising I pray, then chat with God about ‘things’. I confess to Him when I’ve messed up especially when I know I’m being tested and did poorly on my exams. I ask Him to help me do better. And I thank Him for the strength to keep me pressing on.

      Weekends are tough because I’m tired and that’s when my defenses are down and my ability to keep things in check is mediocre at best. Emotions get the best of me and that’s when I need Him most.

      I see progress but patience isn’t always my strong suit and that’s a major lesson He’s teaching me right now. To wait and see what wonderful thing He has planned!

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    1. Thanks so much for stopping by and for your thoughtful comment.

      I guess it’s a bit of both. Although, when I’m still and praying answers come that have plagued me for a while. So I can’t say it’s me but that it’s God speaking. The words come through clearly, not audibly as in a voice speaking, but internally as an impression on my inner being (my soul ) I know they are not my words for there are times when I’m confused, as was the case with this “chat”. I have no idea what He means by “more “, so like He said, I just have to wait and see…

      Hope you had a lovely weekend. Have a blessed week ☺

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