Sometimes I get in the way

My dog is a powerful breed in both personality and physical strength. At 50+ pounds when she greets you hello she’ll push you over if you’re not careful. She never walks beside or behind me, instead, she’s always always out in front – – in the lead, sometimes even pulling me in the direction she wants to go. As a result our walking pace is pretty brisk, never a casual stroll, which can be frustrating at times. (I know The Dog Whisperer, Cesar Millan, will shake his head disapprovingly should he hear of this).

Often, to get her to slow down I take her on a path she doesn’t know. If she doesn’t know where she’s going then she has no choice but to fall back and let me lead. That’s when her demeanor changes. She’s no longer on autopilot, she’s no longer pulling, but she finally stays close to my side because she’s unsure and sometimes visibly scared. This is when I console her and let her know it will all be OK. I rub her head, she looks up at me searching my eyes for sincerity and we press on.

This act of surrender and trust transforms her and in an instant I see my own behavior. I am admittedly strong-willed and have this need to be in control of my own destiny. This comes from my rebellion to break free from being controlled by family. But just like my dog, I’m so used to being on autopilot, up ahead in the lead, that I don’t stay at God’s side allowing him to guide me. It’s not until He takes me to uncharted territory, that I have no choice but to fallback as I’m essentially and hopelessly lost.

What a profound life lesson this has been that I could not keep it to myself.

I don’t want to get in the way of the work God needs to do in my life so I’m making a conscious effort to be the background for His performance. I’m learning slowly, and sometimes painfully, to let Him take the lead. I’m trying really hard to remember He knows best and would never leave me!

What awesome life lessons have you learned lately? Are you also guilty of getting in the way? Feel free to share your stories and of course, thanks for reading. Have a great day!

Hugs,
A.

 

 

 
 


Contents written: January 16 2016  
Edited: February 6 2016
Originally published: February 2016
Copyright 2016 Moylom Enterprises


 

21 thoughts on “Sometimes I get in the way”

  1. I could relate to your article about trying to lead when it’s best to let God lead. What made me comment is the amount of sleep you’re getting. I told an author/coach once that I get eight hours of sleep each night and he couldn’t believe it. Maybe he’s like you, surviving on four hours. I think you said 12:30 p.m. to 4:30 p.m. I get headaches, twitching eyes and irritable, besides nauseous with that little amount of sleep, especially the older I get. God bless!

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    1. Hi. Thanks for your great comment!

      The only time I sleep for 8hrs is on the weekend and by then my body is already used to being up at 4:30 so I’ll wake up anyway, use the bathroom, have munchkin use the bathroom also (issues with bedwetting so I keep her on a schedule ) then I go back to bed. The thing is, I usually have breakfast by 6:30am during the week since we’re leaving the house by 7:30, so sometimes I’m laying there hungry. And if I don’t get up to eat I’m literally starving by 8 o’clock.

      I’ve found that 8hrs, though by body needs it because I’m so depleted by the weekend, is a bit much since I often end up with headaches, stiff neck and just a feeling of lethargy. I function better with shorter sleep times. I get the rest I need without my body seizing up. I’m on the go all week so suddenly being still for long periods is sort of a shock to my system. I do nap a lot though and that works wonders.

      Don’t know if any of this makes sense to you but it’s what works for lil ole me ☺

      Thanks so much for stopping by. Have a great week!

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  2. Su rendering to God is a good suggestion snd yet He wants us to use the Gifts given to us. I understand the allowing God lead your life and respect it. Your story and example was beautiful.
    My response is to trust but also help my life to go the right way. Just making sure we don’t also lie like a doormat and be trodden upon. It took me long time to leave a “Christian” man who had me feeling I was never good enough. . . ~Robin

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    1. Thanks so much for your thoughtful comment.

      Being “Christian” doesn’t negate the fact that we are still human with flawed ways of thinking. It takes a strong, secure person to understand that it’s unhealthy to manipulate a person into giving love. That’s NOT love, it’s CONTROL.

      I dated a guy once, who I new had a girlfriend (not a proud moment in my life, and would never do that again). I was a single mom of 2, struggling emotionally and financially. When I finally got a grip of myself and was ready to move on to someone I could call “my own”, he tried to convince me that he was the best I could get because men don’t usually want to date women with kids. If anything the best I’d do was an old guy desperate for a mate. Can you imagine the nerve of this guy?

      But then I realized he used the same tactics to control his then girlfriend, she had low self esteem and believed all his lies. She thought he was God’s gift to women because he convinced her she couldn’t do better. But me, I ran from him as fast as I could. If he couldn’t see my worth beyond a roll in the hay then it was because I allowed him to treat me that way. I had to see my own worth, even if it meant I’d be single the rest of my life.

      Not many men have come since to convince me my life has more worth with them than on my own. Only God knows if there is someone out there for me. I guess He’ll let me know when he thinks I’m ready. In the mean time, I’ve entrusted my heart to Him, so He may keep it safe til the right person comes.

      Always happy when you stop by, best wishes to you. Happy Wednesday 🌷

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      1. I like the part of you talking about your dog and this lines:

        “This act of surrender and trust transforms her and in an instant I see my own behavior. I am admittedly strong-willed and have this need to be in control of my own destiny. This comes from my rebellion to break free from being controlled by family. But just like my dog, I’m so used to being on autopilot, up ahead in the lead, that I don’t stay at God’s side allowing him to guide me. It’s not until He takes me to uncharted territory, that I have no choice but to fallback as I’m essentially and hopelessly lost.”

        I dont know why but they speak to me a little more louder then the other lines.

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  3. hi, thanks for the follow. I really can relate to this. Thank you for this post. I forgot the time to get myself ready for church. Now i gotta go a very crucial reminder to get God lead me first before anything else.

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      1. yes, the sermon of the pastor is inspiringly relatable and that made my day complete. A goal i set on myself to attend mass each sunday for a start. Your post really helps to bring me back to my goals.

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