I locked my self out of my home on Friday.
I had to go to the mgmt office to get a key.
This is something I just never do.
I had my lunch bag but left my pocketbook.
This is frustrating.
I’ve been misplacing things a lot lately.
Many changes in my life
Have left me emotionally frayed.
The stress is taking a physical toll.
And now the mental effects are showing.
I feel Iike I’m losing my mind.
This is not like me.
I’ve never been this physically shaken.
I’ve never been this mentally frayed.
I’m trying to find clarity.
I need to get over this but I just feel lost.
I’m not good at pretending.
I’m not good at faking happiness.
I can’t sell hopefulness in the face of doubt.
I’m not good at smiling through the pain.
I’m sorry if that doesn’t sit right with you.
I’m sorry I’m not my upbeat self.
I’m just struggling.
I’m not used to this uncertainty.
I’m just being real.
I’m just being myself.
I’m sorry if that’s not who you came to see.
But that’s all I know how to be.
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Contents compiled: December 18 2016
Originally published: December 18 2016
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